HIGHLIGHTS OF THE DAY:
1. I ate good food today. Itlog na maalat and kalabasa for lunch. Turon for merienda. Pinaupong manok for dinner. In fairness, kinaya ng skinny stomach ko haha.
2. I had the time for myself once again. I took everything as it goes. Very chill lang ngayon. I watched yung documentaries regarding Fyre Festival. Naalala ko lang siya because of the recent cancellation of some music event.
3. My best friend Asha (who currently lives in Norway) reaching out. Maguusap kami later.
4. Finally starting a more detailed evening journaling, hindi online but literally writing sa notebook. I have this notebook na binigay ng pamangkin ko when they found out that I got laid off sa previous job ko and might as well use it to journal about my life. Iwas overthink na rin.
WHAT DID I LEARN TODAY?
It's okay to take things slow.
Mahirap kasi mag-move on from what happened last Tuesday. I need to cope with it fully bago ako makausad. It sounds easy but it's hard to act upon it. Basically what I did today was just bed rotting, play the usual games and watch some documentaries.
I'm also trying to adjust my body to sleep at around 10-11pm - basta before midnight and then wake up around 4:30am. Lagi ako nag-aadjust para somehow maging productive ako to do stuff.
In fairness, I'm proud of myself for slowly starting a routine. Hindi pa siya ganung ka-solid pero at least may progress. I'm proud of myself for holding space with journaling.
Hopefully ma-achieve ko. Once matanggap ako sa inapplyan ko, I'm willing to adjust my body as well.
It's still a long way to go, but I am still hoping and claiming that I will get that job. Yan yung pinanghahawakan ko. Matatapos na ang malulungkot kong araw.
