Okay, so first time ko 'tong gagawin... intentionally. Honestly, hindi ko alam yung gagawin pero andito na tayo. Sa bawat pagtype, unti-unti tayong umuusad at wala nang bawian.
Nakita ko to sa friend ko na si Iman. Nag-post kasi siya ng morning routine niya before going to the gym. Watching that, na-inspire ang gay to do the same, with some minor tweaks. Syempre hindi natin fully gagayahin yung routine niya, divine?
Before this kasi, parang napunta sa standstill yung life ko lately. Everything went down since na-lay off ako nung May last year. I chose this naman, but di ko naman alam na ang sakit pala ng ganun. I chose to rest din pero nawili ang bading. Ayun, grabe yung anxiety levels because walang mahanap na work due to pressure and overdue balances. Somehow may nag-reach out naman for an interview and HOPEFULLY - eto na ang sagot ko sa kahirapan. Kaya now pa lang, sisimulan ko na 'to. Para malihis naman ako sa anxiety ko.
I've downloaded this format somewhere and merong 5 minutes to journal in the morning and to journal tonight. So baka ganun ang gawin ko. Gagawin ko na tong journal dump.
So here goes.
So here goes.
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DATE: February 3, 2025
I AM GRATEFUL FOR:
1. A new day. Nagigising ako nang maaga. Hindi ako nakakapagcheck agad ng phone. Well, very quick lang if may notifs but nothing more.
2. Itong playlist na pinapakinggan ko now. It's a playlist of classical songs na nagamit sa isang K-drama about a person in the autism spectrum doing trauma cleaning. Habang naglilinis siya, ito yung pinapakinggan niyang playlist to keep him focused. Somehow, nagkakaroon siya ng effect sa akin, which is good, I guess?
3. Starting this gratitude journaling. I've been wanting to do this for the longest time. Pero hindi ko alam pano, or either tamad ako. Okay, excuses pero at least I'm proud of my decision to start doing this.
WHAT WOULD MAKE TODAY GREAT?
WHAT WOULD MAKE TODAY GREAT?
1. Sa tingin ko, magiging great ngayon if I focus on reviewing the job description for tomorrow's job interview. May interview ako tomorrow night. On-site siya and I need to review nang malala for it. Sa lahat ng inapplyan ko, eto lang yung nag-reach out sakin. Ako naman, whichever opportunity shows up, grab naman ang bading. Hopefully, mabawasan ang kaba ng bading. Hindi umabot sa anxiety levels.
2. Start reading a new book. I downloaded yung Digital Minimalism: Choosing a Focused Life in a Noisy World ni Cal Newport. Ang tagal ko na ring hindi nakakapagbasa ng book. I think the last time I finished one was Paulo Coelho's By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept. E-Book siya so at least hindi social media ang habol ko sa phone.
3. Yung for once, hindi ko maramdaman ang anxiety. Ang pangit ng feeling, sa totoo lang. Pinapawisan ka, bigla ka namang titigil, maglalakad ka nang paikot ikot for no reason. I just need peace for today. I need all the good juju I get for tomorrow's interview. I just realized na medyo crucial ang week na to for me kasi tomorrow ang interview, which is I think yung final one, tapos within the week ko malalaman if tanggap ako or hindi. So ayun - hoping, praying, claiming that I get the job.
DAILY AFFIRMATION:
"I am capable, I am strong, and I am grateful for all the blessings in my life."
Yung daily affirmation, nakuha ko lang sa Meta AI - somehow grateful for it. Ang ganda kasi swak siya sa gratitude journal na sisimulan ko today. Also I haven't been those in a long time so it's nice to hear it again and isapuso siya for today.
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In fairness, it took me more than five minutes for me to do this, pero ang dami ko nang nasulat. Ang sarap pala nitong gawin, tapos classical music pa yung background mo.
I hope and I pray na matuloy ko siya. I will hold space for this one. May part 2 pa ng gratitude journal later.
So with that, I shall go on with my day and get back with the evening prompts later.
