Not me going back to blogging after so many years.. especially on this ungodly hour.
My Sagittarius impulses led me to creating a new blog, where I will be writing about my worries of the day. The pandemic is still ongoing so I guess it's time to create a new outlet where I can write freely whatever I want without people noticing it.
I have been a safe space to everyone and they have been my safe space. As I much as I would want to open up and tell all my problems to them, I might as well create a safe space on my own. A space where no one will judge what I will write and what I will feel.
To start off, I've been recently promoted and almost three months in, I haven't really fully grasped my job. They really made it clear that the job I have now is demanding, almost to the point that some things have to be compromised, like the two 15-minute breaks and even the lunch break. It has given me so much pressure that when I fuck up, I would really take it badly. It even went to a point that I was given so many feedback that I felt demotivated.
On my part, I still try to improve, but I take one day at a time. There are days, however that when I really feel bad about my work, I would just close off and think of having boundaries. But whatever.
It just brought me back to the earlier months of my work - long story where I really struggled because I was under a bad leader.
So yeah, work has been affecting me mentally, but I know that I'm a fighter. I'd like to think that this is just a phase. Eventually, I will get used to this and I will get better.
